I Am Just a Vessel _ Beyond Polarity
I am just a vessel. A carrier of God’s will.
God directs what I carry. I cannot choose what I carry. I can only resist what he’s asked me to carry. That’s the only choice that I have. At that point, I no longer become a vessel.
Beyond that, choice is an illusion. And once I choose to accept this, I am no longer confined by the illusion. I no longer desire to have choice. I do not need to choose. God chooses for me.
That is God’s way and has ALWAYS been God’s way. It has never been any different. Only my perception created the illusion it was different, created the illusion that I had choice.
God asks me to carry what God has given me. I know this because I am God; a reflection of God. I am the vessel of God that chose to come here and live in this vessel. I have been living but I have not been alive. Now I am coming to life.
What does this mean, ‘coming to life’? It means arriving to the truth of me being a vessel. In that way, life now flows through me. Unimpeded. No restrictions. As God intended.
And life keeps on going. To pause and to ruminate is to put a kink in the hose – to stop the free-flow of life through me as a vessel. Self-judgment keeps the hose kinked. Forgiveness unkinks the hose.
Forgiveness is happening in every second when I am a vessel. I live in a state of self-forgiveness. That is compassion. That is unconditional love.
I am the mirror of life when I am with others. Life runs through me and to them. As I am a vessel, I mirror back where they have kinked their hose. I accept them and show compassion for their kinking because I have compassion for myself. I exist in a state of forgiveness for their kinking because I exist in a state of forgiveness for myself. Unconditional love can flow. I create the opportunity for others’ hose to unkink. They must release the illusion of choice if they’d like to unkink their hose; they must release the illusion of choice if they want love to flow.
As a vessel, I am free. Though I have given up my illusion of choice, I have gained so much more. I have gained a higher vantage point; I have arrived at a higher truth. Love fills me and then leaves me. Like breath. It comes and goes. I do not attach. I surrender to life. I surrender to love like I surrender to my breath. Love flows through me like an empty vessel. And I experience pure joy. And because I am an empty vessel without choice, the experience of joy remains even when love leaves. I am an empty vessel.